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Jackpot

    It's Tuesday evening, October 23, 2018, the world around me is in the lottery $1.6 billion buzz, while I'm thinking about my next treatment and looking back on Chemo Round 1.  Round 1 started on Friday, October 12, 2018 which was pushed 3 days because I had a stomach virus, yeah so puking before Chemo, how fashionable of me, a friend of mine with Cancer called me an over achiever.      As I sat there on Day 1, my head filled with what they call the "Fog" it filled within my head, my arms and fingers, a somewhat tingly feeling all over.  Other than that, I sat there in my chair talking with my wife, looking out the window and carrying on a normal day.  Well, the new normal.  I just have the mindset to put one step in front of each other and HammerOn, if I sit there and sulk it ain't going to get me anywhere.    My medications are prescribed below for the Days 1-4. Day 1 - Chemo "AC" (Doxorubicin called Adriamycin "A" and Cycl...

Day 0

It was September 12, 2018, there I laid in the Ultrasound office, just me, on the white paper looking at the ceiling, thinking. I already knew. The next day, my mind was racing with multiple thoughts, remembrance of family, history, past images and friends all flowing in and out. I knelt at church crying, full of tears, asking why is all of this in my head. But something happened the days after and when the biopsy confirmed Cancer, I felt my mind leave my body. I would see and feel something off to the right and my attitude changed, my mind started thinking about solutions. Solutions developed over the weeks into things that I could do to keep my attitude positive and my mind going, even if my body didn’t want to respond. I began writing words and phrases surrounding my name on a blank piece of paper. Words can’t really describe it, perhaps it was my Dad, a 16 year Cancer Fighter acting as Heaven Guardian Angel looking over me, communicating to my mind spiritually in a way that ...