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    It's Tuesday evening, October 23, 2018, the world around me is in the lottery $1.6 billion buzz, while I'm thinking about my next treatment and looking back on Chemo Round 1.  Round 1 started on Friday, October 12, 2018 which was pushed 3 days because I had a stomach virus, yeah so puking before Chemo, how fashionable of me, a friend of mine with Cancer called me an over achiever. 
    As I sat there on Day 1, my head filled with what they call the "Fog" it filled within my head, my arms and fingers, a somewhat tingly feeling all over.  Other than that, I sat there in my chair talking with my wife, looking out the window and carrying on a normal day.  Well, the new normal.  I just have the mindset to put one step in front of each other and HammerOn, if I sit there and sulk it ain't going to get me anywhere.   

My medications are prescribed below for the Days 1-4.
Day 1 - Chemo "AC" (Doxorubicin called Adriamycin "A" and Cyclophosphamide Cytoxan "C"), with IV of Dexamethasone and Zofran.  Began taking Zofran 6 hours post Chemo
Day 2 - Dexamethasone AM & PM with Zofran every 8 hours
Day 3 - Dexamethasone AM with Zofran every 8 hours
Day 4 - Dexamethasone AM with Zofran every 8 hours

    Later in the evening, I felt hungry, felt really hungry, and I ate, but the stomach pains would last through the night and the coming days.  I kept track of exactly what I ate, water intake, how I felt in all and below is what they looked like.  I know my team back at the office is probably thinking, what not organized in OneNote? 

    I began hitting the wall around the tail end of Day 3, where I would have a great morning, but then hit the wall with stomach pains, enough where I could not eat or drink.  I was in trouble, I just did not know how bad. Day 4 was better, but my body was acting out, when the kids went to school, I would voice my rage and yell out "I want my life back."  By Day 5 the vomiting had begun and included everything I was trying to keep down, Mr. Zofran was not my friend.  I tried to work it out within a 24hr cycle of stopping the diarrhea and vomiting, but I could not get it under control. 

    By day 7, I called the triage nurse and came in for IV Fluid Hydration.  I spoke with my nurse and she consulted with the Johns Hopkins Pharmacy in Baltimore, they wanted to change my meds.  They said it was likely the Dexamethasone that had caused my hunger pains and would make a change to my meds.  They started me on Olanzapine for nausea for 3 days.  This stuff was wonderful!  I received a 1-liter IV fluid, and overnight my rebound had begun.
   I graphed out what I think about the experience.  I had told people before Chemo started, that there was a rocket taking off and I'm on it.  That rocket took off, and it's still going, Chemo is a cumulative medicine, it doesn't start from zero each time and neither do I, #HammerOn


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