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It was September 12, 2018, there I laid in the Ultrasound office, just me, on the white paper looking at the ceiling, thinking. I already knew. The next day, my mind was racing with multiple thoughts, remembrance of family, history, past images and friends all flowing in and out. I knelt at church crying, full of tears, asking why is all of this in my head. But something happened the days after and when the biopsy confirmed Cancer, I felt my mind leave my body. I would see and feel something off to the right and my attitude changed, my mind started thinking about solutions. Solutions developed over the weeks into things that I could do to keep my attitude positive and my mind going, even if my body didn’t want to respond. I began writing words and phrases surrounding my name on a blank piece of paper. Words can’t really describe it, perhaps it was my Dad, a 16 year Cancer Fighter acting as Heaven Guardian Angel looking over me, communicating to my mind spiritually in a way that as I human I didn’t understand. Whatever it is, I felt it, it resonates within me. I recently took a mindful meditation class, and as I slowed my breathing and felt grounded to earth, the instructor asked for the mind to look over the body starting with the head moving downwards. I felt my mind surround me, look over me, calm me, I was in tears.

Spiritual Positive Attitude Resonates Within Me

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